No, I'm NOT~

When I decided to write this blog, I was afraid tat I'm going to offend my friends. But, HELL they going to read my blog anyway. Because I had been thinking about this for a few days. So I will just release everything HERE in MY BLOG.

One day, my friend was asking me what is the scope for the coming paper, which is now already done. 

So, our conversation begin like this:

FRIEND: that day u go tat lecture.. niraj got say anythg ma? like scope or what..

Me: I dn tel u meh?I told u ad la 

F: no ler. where wor

me: u check back the conversation

F: so long lehhh haha u tell me again la 

me:I gt gv u...thn afterwards u bo rpl me ad... 

F: no

• really no

  i no ying xiang at all

  haha

  as i know is the what factor analysis and what variance nia de lor..

  and what test will be coming out i dont know wor

  he got say ma?

  coz 2 way and correlated sample t test i wait tmr only learn and ask fren teach me d

  [here, I was actually trying to look back to old conversation to prove to him I did inform him]

  halor..

  u there ma?

  wei

  weiwieeiei

  ei

  w

  why u seen d din reply one

  haha 

  Me: gt 1sample t test, chi square, anova,correlation, linear regression, factor analysis (defintion only)

  F: and?

  Me: tats all what u wan how many? 

  [I just mean, those topics above is not enough? u stil wan more topics come out in the exam?]

  F: ouhh got le got le

  haha

  aiyoo

• why so pek chekk [I bolded here]

  dont know u tulan what oo 

  Me:i dn und y u always say i angry lo padahal i no angry 

  F:haha
• what is padahal?

  malay?? or? haha

  
  

  OMG! WHY YOU ALWAYS SAY I DULAN OR PEK CHEK?? NO!! I WASN'T~~ Actually I really felt a bit hurt because NOW I know that my friend think me in this way. I understand though why he will think me in this way.

  I know, I burst out before, yelling at him. BUT, that was when I was so fucking angry   and he come criticizing me. SO I SNAPPED and BOOM.. I'm sorry for that.

  Then, from that onwards, he always say I'm angry la, pek chek la... I hope he know that he is hurting my feeling. I just snapped once, and he sentenced me to death making conclusion that I'm a petty person (I GUESS ) and judge me from that point of view.

  There was one time also, they said they wanted to have BBQ before exam but I was back in hometown. So I thought I could go back Kampar earlier for the gathering. BUT THEN, as days goes on, no one ever update about the gathering. If the gathering is no going to happen, then I will stay at hometown for a little while longer. I called him and asked whether the gathering is still on, he said it was cancelled. I said, "OK"

  Then, I have this thought << Luckily I called or I will go back for nothing>> Later on I posted on FB, saying that [[ If you didn't say, nobody will know what happen. Grow until so big already, better be more 有交代]]

  WELL, I may sounds angry here but actually I was just really fed up with this kind of attitude. I really don't like this kind of attitude. Not that I'm angry because the gathering was cancelled. I JUST DON'T LIKE THIS KIND OF ATTITUDE OF HANDLING THING. That's all. I just hope they could get rid of this kind of attitude because it's really not good. You can't go out and work like this! YEA, maybe this is no big deal but to me, I JUST REALLY DISLIKE this attitude.

  SO REALLY, SERIOUSLY!! DON'T GO WRITE OUT WHAT'S IN YOUR MIND although FB asked "What's in your mind?' in the status box. NEVER!!

  I did try to explain this to my friend because he pm me after I posted that status. BUT then he still assume I'm angry. He wrote in the group or group chat (I forgot) saying that the gathering is cancelled and said " I say sorry to all" or some kind of (I forgot). That was just an opinion of mine!! Then I said I'm SORRY and deleted that post.

  I know this kind of attitude of him. THEN, I REALLY ANGRY already. BUT, I actually felt sad more than angry. Because my friend think me like this. I could explain if I wanted too, but I'm too lazy to do so. If my friends want to think me like this, also never mind. Think whatever they want, say whatever they want, do whatever they want. I don't care already.

  When I'm not dulan, not pek chek, you say me dulan la, pek chek la, then I really become pek chek already.

  Say me pekchek, say me dulan, say me petty, say me whatever you want. I don't care anymore. Because I fucking know myself more than anyone and I fucking know I'm not pekchek, not dulan not petty~

  EVEN IF I was really angry, so what? Other than your girlfriend, other girls cannot angry, cannot be petty? I know I don't behave like girls around friends, but, yet I'm still a girl~ 

  Just a reminder^^

  From now on, I pek chek or no pek chek, angry or not angry, petty or not petty, I also won't post on FB anymore. I will learn to SWALLOW and FORGET.

  Again I want to highlight that I WASN'T ANGRY, BUT NOW, I'M SAD because people think me that way. Maybe I deserve it? because I snapped once?

  Human, the lazy living creature. Always make hasty conclusion early. Judging people with faulty conclusion.

  I swear I will not mention these incident anymore after posting this blog.

  Thanks for reading..annyeong..goodbye...adios...

  APPRECIATE~